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Thoughts On Deathly Hallows

Wow. All I can say is JK Rowling covered A LOT of loose ends in this one. I enjoyed it very much even though there were bits and pieces where nothing happened. It's weird because this book reminded me of Lord of the Rings especially with the wandering-through-forest and the epic battle for Hogwarts near the end (I can't wait to see this on the big screen). Even though it's sad when all (except for my favorite, Hagrid) of those close to Harry/ or father/mother figures die, I still love the finale where Harry is willing to die in order to protect everyone.

HP and the Order of the Phoenix Movie

Went to the first showing of the movie yesterday with Belladoragirl. After having seen it, I think that this one was the best movie yet. Unlike the previous one, this movie didn't feel rushed at all in the beginning. I loved the creepy atmosphere where Dudely and Harry are running through the field trying to escape the thunderstorm. Mrs. Figg was funny and made the perfect "bag lady." Luna Lovegood was also perfect (her and Neville togather are so cute) and I especially liked Fred and George's grand exit. Also the fight between Voldie and Dumbledore was everything that I thought it would be and more.

Nothing much is happening here

Well, I finally got a new psychiatrist today. My parents and I went to the appointment at 10:30. I went in first. Right from the getgo I felt more comfortable. Although this was just the first visit, this doctor doesn't seem anything like that arrogant know-it-all medication-by-trial-and-error rude bitch of an individual that I had before. She gave me information about the medicine that I took that made me anxious/not know what to do with myself and unable to fall asleep. She recommended that Benedril (sp, I know) would have also worked as a sleep aid at that time. Instead of denying the side effects of that new sample medication and making me feel stupid (previous doctor), this doctor admitted that sleep deprivation and feeling "neither here nor there" were potential side effects. All I can say is I'm glad I'm not seeing that monster anymore!

Sleep is good

The past couple of days have been very surreal for me. Since Thursday I've been unable to sleep (this was a combination of an evil Slimfast energy drink and medication for paranoia/anxiety). I don't mean to be overly dramatic but it was pure hell. I was so exhausted and tried to lay down but I couldn't. 5 minutes after, I really wanted to get up and read or walk around. I tried reading but I couldn't concentrate and I didn't want to watch TV becuase it strained my eyes. I was constantly pacing and getting up and down. My parents got very agitated about this and both tried to hold me down. Finally FINALLY I went to that bitch of a psychiatrist on Monday and she sqawked that she already sent something on Friday. Ugh I better get a new one soon because it just seems like she doesn't care and wants to experiment on me She even said that my problem is much more complicated than simple depression. It could be bipolar or severe paranoia (you tell a sleep-deprived person that and they feel SO much better) Wait a minute. So she doesn't even know what she's treating me for yet she's still giving me medication. And another thing, since when do I have to accept being a lab rat? That stupid woman (she kinda looks like Umbridge)said I've been very clear cut (yes or no) about what I want to do/am comfortable with. Well, excuse me if it bothers me to ingest foreign chemicals into my body that could drastically affect my behavior. In late Febuary I saw her twice (once every 2 weeks)and then once in April and again a few days ago. I saw her for 20 minutes each time so that alone qualifies her to trial and error drugs into my system. That first goddamn day she tells me to increase the dosage so it will "work faster." Um, shouldn't she wait and ask me how I'm feeling for a few sessions first. Plus it mystified her as to why I felt like a completely different person after spending just a week in the hospital. She seemed so bored and confused with me that I got the impression that she didn't like me. So glad that I'm switching. I may even switch therapists,too because she basically defended the doctor as well.

No Job Yet

Sigh. Still no luck with the job hunt. I know it's early in the summer but I have a feeling that I won't get one until the end.

Nice break so far

I've been home for 3 days and I STILL haven't finished unpacking yet. Maybe it's because I'm finally free from schoole (at least for a little while) that I don't feel like doing much of anything. The only notable things have been playing with my favoritist dog in the whole wide world, going to the library, and typing my story from last summer.

Finally Home

Well, summer has officially started for me and I am happy for the break but unhappy for finding a job (it would be nice if I had only to work 4 days per week).

Belladoragirl, can we get togather sometime later this week?
You'd think that I would have learned my lesson 2 1/2 months ago when I got my first 2 cavities filled. But no. So here I am now eating junk food (or at least stuff with very high amounts of sodium) and consuming candy and chocolate by the gallon. Of course I don;t help matters much by saying yes everytime my boyfriend asks if it would be okay if he got me chocolates. Grr. Why do I keep doing this to myself? I know stuff like that is still bad for me yet I keep engorging myself with it. Ugh. I'm dreading the appointment to the dental hygenists. Sorry, this has been welling up inside me for some time and I have to get it out some way. On the bright side, my boyfriend is coming over this weekend and there;s only a few weeks left of school!

Relieved yet a bit worried.

I'm so happy that I finally got my presentation for Human Growth and Development over with. It never fails; no matter how much I practice and know the information foward backward up and down I always get nervous. I don't remember if I said this before but I usualy (a day before the presentation) go through the list of all the things that could possibly go wrong. Of course, nothing bad happened except I though the teacher was a little irritated that I took 15 minutes instead of the required 10 (most people did 15 though).

Also I finally took the plunge and switched my major from Art Therapy to Psychology. The Art Therapy advisor really frustrated me because she told me the opposite of what I've been hearing. She insisted that a person is 10x more likely to get a job with Art Therapy degree (there's so many opportunities and you can go anywhere with it) than in Psychology (you're basically trapped in a box). She made it sound that Art Therapy is the new up and coming field because so few colleges offer the program which seems like a contradiction to me. She also said that some undergrads already have jobs before they graduate and it's more difficult for a psych major to find internships than an undergrad with an Art Therapy degree. God, now I feel so guilty and confused. I mean, I know that she's like a salesman trying to sell me a product but I still felt bad. I'm wondering if this is the right choice for me. I know that I definetely want to go in a field that involves helping someone with their mental/life problems but I'm still unsure of what specific direction I want to go in.

Just saying hi again

I know it's been a while since I updated and I'm sorry. It's actually not that I've been particularly busy because I just finished up my Incomplete classes a couple of weeks ago. I still have to (Gr, I keep forgeting) call Student Employment to tell them that it's going to be at least a couple more weeks before I go back to work. I'm beginning to question the point of doing this because they know it's late anyway (at least 2 months) so why bother? For some reason, I've been really tired lately and I don't know why. At this point, the paranoid thoughts kick I worry that it's something unpleasant like diabetes or extra weight gain.

Oh, hey Belladoragirl, I was wondering are we still going to have our Leo birthday get togather in the summer?